“Every creator painfully experiences the chasm between his inner vision and its ultimate expression.”
—Isaac Bashevis Singer, U.S. (Polish-born) author (1904–1991)
Having reached an age where reflecting upon my life thus far has provoked curiosity, interest, insight and a daily dose of introspection I’ve observed certain patterns of thought, behavior and inquiry that have apparently been part of my core motivation for the past 70 years.
With no real early skills of understanding the meaning, purpose, reality of function inherent in living a deliberate and meaningful life, in retrospect I can now identify and appreciate many of the events, relationships, decisions and ostensibly random occurrences that have contributed to who, what and why I am.
Beginning with a series of seemingly mundane events I share the framework for my most recent insights into the nature of reality.
Briefly, at around the age of 6 years old I remember walking home from kindergarten and having a surreal experience of momentary discernment regarding my ultimate purpose in life.
From that moment forward I also acquired a unique, but ill defined perspective, regarding virtually every event that subsequently unfolded, constantly nudging me toward my destiny, despite numerous side tracks which I eventually recognized as beneficial clues, encouraging me toward a viable model for interpreting the events and activities which inevitably occur between life and death.
These seemingly random events ultimately lead me to the development of a model for interpreting the causes, effects, meanings and methods for living a life of choice in between these two unavoidable events.
That model resulted in the creation of a process which eventually became known as the Matrix Assessment Profile of The M.A.P.
A New Model of Diagnosis
For the cause of vague and persistent symptoms to be detected in the absence of a diagnosable disease, a new model of differential diagnosis had to emerge. The clinical challenge became that of determining which symptoms are associated with which cause.
The ultimate goal became to restore balance to the whole person, rather than masking the emerging symptoms of an imbalance to create the illusion of balance.
Clinically, imbalances associated with what later evolved into a concept called VCD (Vicious Cycle Disorders) would present themselves as symptoms of commonly diagnosed ailments, such as anxiety, depression, digestive disorders, cognitive impairment, auto immune disorders, hypertension, Diabetes,obsessive compulsive and attention deficit disorders, to name a few.
All too frequently, these symptoms are diagnosed and treated as a disease. In reality, all that is accomplished is the artificial management of a group of symptoms. This only serves to perpetuate and aggravate the fundamental imbalance. The causes are overlooked simply because this aspect of the dynamic is frequently overlooked, if considered at all. With rare exceptions, a psychiatric opinion is requested.
As the M.A.P. evolved into a whole person evaluation it became obvious that there were actually distinct causes and effects which, not only lead to the expression of these symptoms, but, in most cases were improvable or reversible simply by identifying the underlying cause.
In doing so, it became necessary to look at things nobody else was looking at in ways that nobody else was looking at them.
This ultimately lead to a gross model of evaluation that took into consideration the three major influences impacting the biological environment causing compromises, imbalances and deficiencies that served as the substrate for emergence of symptoms in the compromised systems in the environment.
These initial three realms of influence included the human structure (with bones, muscle, nerves, tissues, organs and glands), along with the status of the biological environment itself, as well as the unseen realm of psychological, emotional and spiritual influences.
Eventually, another layer of cause emerged in the form of five core biological needs that were an inherent part of each developing human, which, if met or left unmet, would at long last dictate the activity of each primary realm of influence and determine which realm would dominate, leading to predictable psychological and physiological symptoms.
The effects, consequences and outcomes of these multiple possibilities are discussed in detail on my main website and will be expanded upon in subsequent blog entries, so if you simply can’t wait, please join me at www.mtmatrixmap.com.